So sad...and then NOT

So working as a pediatric RN, you have to deal with patients who up and leave the hospital in an inspiring new state of health. I love those moments--when I tell them, "See you at the mall, at the park...anywhere but here. Don't come back!" But you have to deal with dying patients as well. I thought that by now, I can handle seeing little kids die and that I've learned not to take work home with me.

But this year has been awfully hard. There have been so many deaths of some of my favorite patients at work. Today, there is a viewing for one of them. At first, I thought I was gonna go..it just seemed natural. But I'm tired of crying, and I felt like I already had my closure when I said good-bye to this sweet little girl on her death bed and as I hugged and kissed her parents. I feel guilty and selfish, but I don't think it would do me any good going, and I'm sure that the family know I have them in my thoughts and prayers. I still feel horrible...

To make myself feel better, I found this on DBird's blog, and I LOVE, LOVE filling out surveys! So here goes some info people won't otherwise know about moi:

1. When Gil and I sleep at night, we don't fall asleep touching each other (I think it has to do with comfort, and/or maybe the heat). But I love it when he or I wake up in the middle of the night, and he puts his hand on my arm or face, and I do the same. It's such a tender act of love. It reminds me of that one line in a commercial: "With every waking moment, love grows." (Yes, you will find this as a title in one of my scrapbooking lay-outs soon!) Corny, I know!!



2. I have many moles, especially on the left side of my face. I actually don't mind them..I think it gives me distinctive features. I told you I like all things unique!

3. I have a tendency to say "umm, you know" when I talk. I don't know but sometimes, I forget words that I'm trying to say. Maybe it has something to do with getting older or maybe because English was my second language?? Who knows? I'm so freaking annoyed by it though.

4. I'm actually only 1/16th Chinese. I get so mad when people say, "But you don't look Filipino!" I'm Filipino (Dammmittt!!) with some Chinese and Spanish.

5. I don't like drinking soda out of a can but I'm cool with drinking it out of a bottle. But my ideal is to drink it through a straw in a glass filled with ice! *thinking about yummy Diet Dr. Pepper!*

6. I love to bowl, though I'm not very good. I think I broke a hundred once. I'd love to try glow-in-the-dark bowling!!

7. I enjoy making lists. Maybe because I love to write and try out different handwritings. Or maybe because I love to be determined. There's nothing like checking off that box for "paying bills" or "washing dishes." One time, my friend and I were in a class for work, and she saw me write out a list of my "things to do when I get home." She took my notes and wrote out, "get a life" and "poo." *LOL* I started laughing!!!

8. I was never a fifth grader. I skipped it and went straight to sixth from the fourth grade. I was a super nerd!! And proud of it!:)

Mucho Kits

Geez!!! I've been going crazy with Scrapbooking Kits lately....It's only August 1st, and I've bought 3 (Well, I'm not going to count the first one because it was back in July, ha ha!). So now, I can only buy one more for this month!!!

I feel so guilty because I've been putting in so much time on my hobbies that I am not doing much wedding planning. I really feel very determined in my scrapbooking goals, but I know with a wedding that's happening in less than 9 months, I better get off my ass!!

And this past week blew me off my blissful scrapbooking cloud when I went to two bridal showers! Then I saw pics of a friend's bachelorette in Vegas and thought how I'd love to have me one of those....

It's so hard because my bff's are all in different states and because we're older, we all have more responsibilities--a couple have kids, all of us are trying to buy houses. Ding-git!! I should've gotten married when we were in our early 20's...no responsibilites and all we wanted to do was PARTAY!!!! So as much as I'd love to have a suite in Vegas, I don't think it'll be possible. But seeing my friend's pics definitely got me thinking about wedding planning so I guess something good came out of my realization! :)

Anway, back to scrapbooking, here are what I've been busy over!

I'm bad

The new Harry Potter comes out tonight....

..So my sis decides to dress up her puppy, my dog nephew, into Harry. My camera ran out of batteries before

she could put on the burgundy and gold tie. Ha ha!! *LOL* It was so funny. The "glasses" were pipe cleaners but Apollo did not like them at all!! We had to bribe him with doggie treats!!

Anyway, I'd love, LOVE to stay up and buy the book and read it till morn'...but unfortunately, I have PALS tomorrow...It's the Pediatric Advanced Life Support classes that are now mandatory for my job!! I really should be studying but I couldn't help but scrap a few pages:

Roll...

I was so stressed out this weekend. I was trying out for a design team at A Million Memories, but I procrastinated. After finally finishing my altered project, I realized that I needed to make two lay-outs NOT previously posted!! OH NO!! I wasn't really happy with the l.o.'s I turned in, but was satisfied with my altered project. Even if I don't get the position, it was still fun trying out for my first Design Team. Hmmmm, on to the next one!! :)



So after working two days, I went into scrapping mode and was on a ROLL!! I finally got my kits from Those Were the Days and Scrap In Style TV, and I love them!! I must buy more kits!!! They're totally addicting!! So here's what I finished:





From SIS TV Shabby Rock Star Collection, I came up with these:

From Those Were the Days, I did these:

I even turned this one for the challenge at A Million Memories on not using squares or rectangles.

And for my many and new pp from Scenic Route:

I'm a little overwhelmed with wanting to try out for design teams and getting published with my scrapbooking...and juggling my other life of wedding planning, nursing shared leadership, getting rid of this cough, and just everyday life.

So for today, I'll just scrap!


"Monterey"

Supplies used: Heidi grace designs, Bazzill, Uniball and Micron Pen

"Seize the Day"

(I say celebrate each birthday!)

Heidi grace designs, American crafts ribbon

"The Beginning"

Love story that bloomed from friendship

Hambly, Bazzill, Micron Pen.

Journaling: "AT first I was disappointed that Mike's schedule changed, and that it would just be Gil and me left to mountain bike. But things happen for a reason and biking through the trails of Coyote Hills together allowed us to become closer. Between nursing each other's 'sports injuries' and enjoying the beauty of the surroundings, fate had to run its course. We were in the beginning of falling in love."

"Best Buds"

Heidi Grace Designs by Fiskars, Maya Road Ribbon, My Mind's Eye, Bazzill, The Paper Studio mini clothes.

" Details "

Me and my Big Ideas, 7 gypsies, SEI, My Mind's Eye, Making Memories, EK Success.

"Faves at 29"

7 gypsies, Micron Pen, Imaginisce, Love, Elsie, My Mind's Eye, Creative Imaginations, Mustard Moon Rub-ons, Making Memories staples, Reminisce Rub-ons.

"Scrapping BFF's"

Bazzill, Imaginisce, Making Memories Staples, Rhonna Farrer Stamps, Stampin' Up ink, American Crafts Ribbon, Heidi grace designs frame.